"And the day came when the risk to
remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” Anais Nin
In an effort to overcome depression
and to help better work with my gender dysphoria, I am changing my name to
Madeleine Rose Huish.
Madeleine after my wonderful aunt
Maddie, whom I loved as a child, and Rose as a connection to my firstborn (her
middle name) from the city in which she was born, the city of Roses…
For those who didn’t get the memo
in the fall of 2013, and the writings which followed over the next 6 months, I
am transgender, two-spirit, trans-feminine, genderqueer, genderfluid, pick
whichever term you like. Am I woman or man? Does it matter? It does in some
sense to me and how I appear to the outer world gives rise to issues of
invisibility and incongruity, which affects me. I can’t control how others see
me but I can take steps like this, which help me to feel more comfortable in
this life.
I prefer female pronouns and Maddie
is fine also, and hey it’s fairly close to Matt. I recognize overriding our
basic readings on gender can be difficult and don’t want anyone close to me to
feel pressure around ‘getting it right’ so don’t worry if the pronouns come out
awkward. I’m just stating my preferences and appreciate your understanding and
support. If you have any questions please just ask.
I reserve the right to change my
name and preferences again if I decide at some point that I feel differently.
Many thanks to my wonderful loving
partner Brandy and all of my great supportive family, friends and students over
the past few years.
Much love you all,
Maddie
